James Middleton, the younger brother of Kate Middleton, has shared a poignant account of his mental health journey in his forthcoming memoir, Meet Ella: The Dog Who Saved My Life. Scheduled for release on September 24, the book provides a deeply personal look into Middleton’s battles with suicidal thoughts and the role his beloved dog, Ella, played in his recovery.
In a revealing excerpt published by the Daily Mail, the 37-year-old James Middleton describes a period of profound despair, detailing how his mental health issues led him to the brink of suicide. He recounts feeling that “all the colour leached out of his life,” experiencing a constant, overwhelming noise in his head, and struggling with insomnia and exhaustion. Middleton candidly writes about his thoughts of ending his life and how he felt detached from his family, including his parents and siblings.
“I feel suicidal. I contemplate ways of dying so I can get off the giddy roller-coaster that is sending me to the brink of madness,” Middleton writes. He goes on to explain how his emotional state had led him to push away his loved ones, including his sisters Catherine and Pippa, and their spouses, William and James.
A particularly moving section of the memoir highlights a critical moment in November 2017 when Middleton considered jumping off a rooftop in London. He describes how his decision to reconsider was influenced by his concern for Ella, his dog. “In that instant, I know I will not jump. What would happen to Ella if I died?” Middleton reflects. The bond with his dog, whom he describes as his “companion” and “hope,” provided him with the strength to step back from the edge and ultimately find a reason to continue living.
James Middleton acknowledges that Ella has been a source of unconditional love and support through his darkest times. “She gave me purpose, a reason to be. How could I contemplate leaving her now?” he writes.
Following his recovery, James Middleton was surprised and honored when Princess Kate and Prince William asked him to do a Bible reading at their wedding, despite his dyslexia. He expresses gratitude for their support and acknowledges their efforts in mental health advocacy.
“I am grateful to Catherine and William, whose work in the field of mental health has given them valuable knowledge and understanding,” Middleton shares.
For those struggling with similar issues, Middleton’s story underscores the importance of seeking help. If you or someone you know is dealing with suicidal thoughts, support is available through iCall’s suicide prevention helpline at 9152987821.
James Middleton’s memoir promises to offer readers a heartfelt exploration of his mental health struggles and the pivotal role that Ella played in his journey towards healing.
